[summer.phillips]

cole is continuing to improve, he is opening his right eye more and more each day. we saw the dr. yesterday and he thinks the infection is all gone out of his inner eye and only the inflammation remains. cole is still not seeing out of his right eye and we will not know why until the inflammation clears up. we will see the dr again on friday morning and we are hopeful that the inflammation will be cleared up enough so that they can tell what is causing him not to see. in the mean time cole is enjoying playing marbles with granny and his new Nintendo ds without a cracked screen from nonnie. cole gets to go back to school on monday and he is very excited about that! brent and i continue to remain hopeful that the vision will return to his right eye but we are also trying to make arrangements for his needs at school in the mean time. please pray for us as we navigate these uncharted waters with the eye dr's and the school.

today the weight of all this could not be avoided any longer. it is hard to let myself feel this because i get so easily overwhelmed. my gut instinct for problems that are too overwhelming to fix is to work around them, or avoid them all together...i can not, however, think of a way to avoid or work around this problem... so, i guess the time has come for me to figure out a new game plan. i must be difficult to teach because God usually has to create scenarios like this where i can't dodge the reality in order to move me. He has to take me to places where i am at the end of myself in order to rely solely on Him. it feels uncomfortable in this place but i know that as i let myself feel and live here, the peace and comfort will come.